Today I choose liberation

poetry
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Today I choose liberation

Tired of irrepressible thinking spoiling my noble intention,
Negative actions, destroying my positive potential,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of pleasing my friends and avoiding my enemies,
Failing to meet expectations and having others failing to meet mine,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of persona, expressions and looks of surprise,
Meetings with pleasing faces and saccharine smiles,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of serious thinking and walking fast
Being wise, being clever, being something, being better,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of what others think or think it matters what I may,
Tired of fitting in and being a part of the gang,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of respect and need of respect in return,
Tired of compliment, status and my daily calculating of my worth,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of being funny, entertaining, interesting, and coy,
Tired of telling “my story”, while wishing it was better,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of neurotic caring and idiot compassion for fools,
Obsessive purpose fulfillers and the immediate righteous cause,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of boundaries and division, lines drawn in the sand,
Lines declaring enemies and lines protecting friends,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of tomorrow, today and events of the past,
Of soon, of almost, of one day,
Today I choose liberation

Tired of consequence, of threat, of hope and reward,
Tired of nights in sleepless deliberation,
Today I choose liberation

Tired, tired, tired…tired period.
Finally and fully exhausted, some things just need to be,
You see liberation needs no fuel, for its not ahead, but at our feet.
For thoughts are not the problem, you see,
It’s the unruly engine ” thinking” that pushes from behind,
But when “thinking’s” fuel is exhausted,
Thoughts are freed and can calmly and naturally arise.
Forward motion exhausted, we sit…in peace…in still…liberated.

–  Tenzin Tharpa